So At Least She’s Not Blockin Me

So I think we’re talking, I mean if you call me and her chatting on AIM till 5 in the morning two nights in a row, and no she’s not talking to her friends at the same time. But again, she’s still just fresh outta the game, like a month, and she knows EXACTLY when they broke up. So now I’m put on the spotlight once again to answer my own questions about my own situation. Should I be talking to her? Am I encouraging her to move on for the wrong reasons? Or even, should I help her feel bad that her boyfriend is out doing things?

She’s out of a relationship, is it wrong of me to talk to her? I like her, and I hope she likes me too, but she’s got baggage. I told myself “who cares” when this first started, but now I’m beginning to regret it because she could be confused due to my talking and what not.

I tell her to move one, but I want her to move on so she can see what I’m all about.  I give her good and encouraging advice only to be thinking how deceitful I am knowing I’m doing it for my own good to be with her. I want her to see me, but it’s supposed to be about her now.

She wants an eye out on her ex through my friend Jorge who’s gonna be at the same party. Should I let him keep an eye out, knowing that no matter what he does, she’s gonna be hurt that he’s there to begin with?

I hope I make the right decisions and I hope I don’t fuck things up because this time, I actually like this girl. I wanna help her get over her ex, and let her know that I’m here for her with open arms. Please God, don’t let me lose this one and help me choose the next words wisely.

~ by solesurvivor on April 18, 2007.